The question isn't about FreeMasonry, but I just don't know where to turn. I'm limited to less than $5 and am not in a position to hire a therapist. I highly question how well a local cope line would do for my situation. I'm not even clear on how to view Freemasonry, but just figured it easy to imagine some members (no idea how many/%) likely understand the hidden things in life which confuse me and could possibly help.
A huge topic is what are the details of the nature I feel when connecting inside with a person I'm looking at a photo of? Is it okay to connect like that to fantasize about sexual things if done in really sweet manner (though out of balance due to my inability to visualize)? If a person is married is the case different? What does it mean if I feel quite significant attraction expressed from the other end? How does that relate to if I met the person in my outer reality? What are the consequences (positive or negative) of how those connections transpire? What to think about specific instances of that going on for years while having strong desire/hope for coming together and falling in love? If the reality on the other side is more real than this one, is the nature even such that it's possible to have an exclusive relationship or love story there?
In that area beyond my situation, I still worry a lot. It brings to mind the concept of a photo maybe doing something like capture a persons soul. I don't understand the nature and worry, especially in the case of with attractive models and celebrities due to how many people likely view + think about them. In the past I remember seeing a Playboy website that was dedicated to celebrity sex scenes and the primary opening photo being of a movie called "Battle In Heaven". I'm now thinking it quite likely related to this dynamic. Probably my biggest passion in life is girls/women and the last thing I want to due is cause anything negative for them. Ideally I would like to help them a lot, but I don't know what to do because I don't know what's real and matters.