I would suggest requesting a meeting with your current (or currently suspended from) lodge. I haven't heard of being suspended from a lodge, with the exception of non-payment of dues. If you have made a mistake, you may be able to make amends by approaching the lodge and it's members and outrightly addressing the problem. Generally, lodges do not wish to lose members, unless you have commited a felony, I would find it suprising that you can not participate in lodge, your brethren however may not be quite as willing to accept you if it had more of a moral turpitude issue. Anyhow, good luck with attempting to re-enter your lodge.