I am not a member ,.but my advice to you is that"actions always speak louder than word's" I hope you you understand that no matter how unfair it is,.that is how most of the world work's. Now Im not a conformist or anything, but I have found in my expierience in life that most of us are categorized. That is "put into social group's" And as unfourtunite as this is, we are kinda stuck in these groups. Now dont get me wrong,.there are alway's exceptions to the "norm", but for the most part people see us by the way we look,.and what group we have been put into. Now,.does that mean you are stuck in that group? Well,.like I said,."actions speak louder than word's". I have alway's been one to give some one a chance. But im not "EVERYONE" Im not going to lie to you. you made it hard for yourself. But so did I. I am spending the last five years of my life, fixing the things I did wrong the first 24.If not for people giving me a chance,.I would not be where I am. But the first step is developing a relationship with God. You cant fix yourself till you do that. Thing's will then become easier for you to see and figure out. It sound to me like your definitly on the right path. I dont know you, so I couldnt say for sure,.but Im sure if you continue the way you are,.you will find your place!