James, I feel the need to be blunt here.
Almost everyone here is a member of a lodge. We have seen how the initiations work. we have been through the application process. So anyone who is trying to pull some wool over some eye's in here will not be able to do it for very long. Not long at all. I have seen a lot of your posts, and I really feel that either you're not really being honest about everything, and maybe you're just looking for a group to chat with.
Or you're telling the truth, and the people you've been dealing haven't been very upfront with you. It sounds to me like they have no intentions of initiating you, for whatever their reason is.
It just seems like this has been going on for way too long.